06-15-07 04:41 PM

Anthony and I our starting to try next month. I mean we aren't temping or anything but just seeing what happens for awhile. I don't want to get to stressed out about it. At one moment I am extatic about ttc but the next I am so scared. My doctor says I am ready and my ovaries are doing well but I just don't know. I have always had some medical thing wrong with me and so it's scary to think that I can finally do this and do it right (you know, married, healthy, etc) But what if I am not ready and the chances of miscarriage is so high for me, can I handle the struggle of it all. But I want it, I want it so bad. And I am overweight and haven't lost enough weight yet but I am trying very hard. So I guess that I do really want a baby but I am just scared of- well a lot of things. LOL! Hopefully, it wont be as hard as I am making it. And I am doing eveything right that I can do. So here's to seeing what happens!

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